Wednesday, 16 July 2014

He's still my baby

My biggest boy is seven. And too cool for school. Or is it skool? See, that's how cool I am.

Every day he seems to be that little bit more grown up and is becoming so much more aware of what his friends think and how to fit in.

It's inevitable I guess, but he's still my baby. Isn't he?

This weekend we were scooting along the seafront on our way to get an ice cream. Dylan has loved his scooter since he was tiny and is very confident on it. He's never used knee and elbow pads before, a point I made to my husband as he zipped off ahead of us. 

Just as I said "he's going pretty fast these days; maybe we should get him some knee pads…", he took a tumble.

He's fine but gave himself a fright and two scuffed knees. And he ran, as fast as he could, for a cuddle. And he wouldn't let go.

It's easy to forget that he's still a baby really. He's always striving to be a bigger boy. Asking when he can have his own TV in his room (never!) and when he can start having sleepovers with friends (again, never! ��). 

Stop Dylan. Slow down. 

I love seeing him grow into such a lovely, confident and happy little man. But with every ounce of confidence and independence I lose a little bit more of his babyness (is that a word?). 

I'm looking forward to spending some quality time with my handsome little man over the summer holidays. Long walks, days at the beach, ice cream, cuddles and scooting to the park. But first, kneepads!

Monday, 14 July 2014

♡ Little bits #4 - the holiday edition ♡

Prepare yourself for some holiday spam. 

If you follow me on instagram you'll have seen these already, so apologies for that. If you don't, firstly please pop over and follow me :) and secondly we've recently got back from our first holiday as a family of five. 

We had a lovely, fun-filled week in the sunshine. It flew by in a flash, and yes I've already started daydreaming about booking for next year. 

Its so lovely to have that time as a family, no interruptions, just lots of laughs and memory making. Bliss.

♡ ♡ ♡

Friday, 11 July 2014

Lone mama wolf

Some days I don't feel it at all. Perfectly happy to potter around in my own little busy world. Other days, not so much. 

Since leaving the world of work after maternity leave with baby number three, I can honestly say I haven't felt it very often at all. With three children there's very little time to feel anything other than busy. The house needs constant tidying; the washing mountain is never (and I mean NEVER) conquered, after school activities are at an all time high… drama, ballet, gymnastics, computer club, swimming…. karate. You get the idea. 

But today, driving home from a Friday morning class with my littlest one, I felt it. Lonely.

I feel daft even saying it. And I'm not sure why. I like my own company most of the time.

With my first baby though, I felt lonely most days. We lived in an area where I didn't know people, not very close to family, and I used to watch the minutes tick away until my husband came home from work at 5:30pm and I'd talk his ear off for a good half an hour.

Now my days are shorter. School pick up at 3:30pm comes around before I know it and I'm legging it down the road seconds before the bell rings.

Its very rare that I have the time to feel bored these days. But I do miss daily chats and laughs with my work friends. 

It was inevitable. I knew I'd feel like this sometimes. And I thought long and hard before handing in my resignation. Eeek. But I do miss grown-ups some days.

I have friends I meet for coffee and Ayden and I go to baby groups and classes a couple of times a week… but, deep down, I've learnt that I'm a bit of a loner. And I've never thought of myself as that before. I grew up surrounded by dozens of friends. Lived with a big group at university. Always loved spending time with lots of people.

When you have a baby you're so caught up in learning how to be a mum you almost forget how to be a person. At least I did. But that's ok. Being a mama is lonely sometimes. And that's ok too. 

It hits me hardest when Ayden wakes from his afternoon nap every day. He cries and as soon as I lift him from his cot, he buries his little face into my neck and just sighs. No more tears. 

I'm the most important person in my little ones' lives. They need me. This won't last forever.

For now, lone mama wolf is fine by me.

Tuesday, 8 July 2014

Everything is awesome

Image - Pinterest

Let's face it. Some days are just crap. No-one's exempt from this and everyone has their own way of coping when things don't go exactly to plan.

I sit here writing this having just dealt with the mother of all tantrums from my sweet little baby boy who, until today, had yet to unleash this level of pre-toddler hell. This comes after a 5:30am wake up call (thanks Meryn), a most unsatisfactory episode with the weighing scale (post holiday weigh-in… ouch) and a baby poop related incident that would horrify even the most seasoned of nappy changers.

Yes, its one of those days. And there are five things I know will make me feel better. I thought I'd share them with you. I'm not saying they'll do anything for you, and you won't find any ground-breaking developments here, but hey, its good to share :)

☞ Coffee
A day without coffee is... well, not going to be pretty frankly. My littlest is a fully paid up member of team no sleep and, as a result, my Nespresso machine and I have become fast friends. No matter how few hours of broken sleep I've managed to cobble together, a double-shot soy flat white makes me feel vaguely human in no time. Sort of. The alternative is unthinkable.

☞ Fresh air
Rain or shine, a stroll makes everything better. With three little ones, rainy days can seem claustrophobic to say the least; so we either wait for a break in the showers, or we suit up in our wellies and raincoats and off we go. A deep breath of fresh air and a stretch of the legs and all is good with the world again.

☞ Perspective
Easy to say. Not so easy to grab a hold of when you're not feeling your best. But I try. And it helps. When my day feels overwhelming because Ayden isn't sleeping or is extra grouchy, or my eldest two are trying to throttle each other…. it'll pass. As with many things (not all of course), it helps to remind myself that it probably won't be a problem tomorrow, next week or a month down the line. Time goes way too fast and I try not to wish the phases along so things will get easier. Life is pretty bloody brilliant and I try not to forget it.

It took me way to long to put two and two together on this one. If I don't eat well throughout the day, man are things way more difficult to deal with. Its so simple but so easy to ignore. I have a tendency to skip breakfast, opting for coffee instead. I'd get to lunch and feel ravenous, probably eat way more than I would otherwise. Or, worse still, I'd have something daft like coffee and a muffin for 'lunch' and then wonder why I have no patience with the kids when they come home from school. Since my epiphany (I mean, how daft am I?) I try to eat healthily throughout the day and the difference is huge. This is even more of an issue following the weighing scale horror I mentioned earlier! Hello Breville juicer… its been a while.

☞ Online shopping 
Ok so I may not be entirely serious on this one, but doing something just for me for five or 10 minutes (30 if I'm lucky) really helps me to put my head back on straight. While Ayden naps I'll spend some time writing blog posts, browsing through Instagram and making online shopping wish lists in my head. Sometimes I do the washing up and fold laundry. I like those days less!

I've managed to do all five of these things today. Check me out. I even went for an early morning run. Before the school run. This never happens. Everything really is awesome!

Wednesday, 18 June 2014

♡ Little bits #3 ♡

I found out this week that I'm due a phone upgrade, so these are the last few pics from my trusty iPhone 4s. 

I'm told the camera on the iPhone 5s is even better, so I'm looking forward to having a play around with that. It also has more memory. Good times.

We had a lovely sunny week here - what a difference it makes. Hope the sun has got his hat on wherever you are.

 1. Hands down the loveliest flowers my husband has ever bought me. I was so sad to see them go. I love yellow and they go beautifully with the purple and the palm leaves. Is that what they're called….? Probably not. But I love them.
2. Poor little man had his booster jabs and MMR but that didn't stop him smiling :) (the chocolate button the nurse gave him straight after helped!)
3. This little beauty loves her baby brother soooo much. Always cuddling him. Sometimes he resists and tries to wriggle free. But sometimes he loves her back just as much ♡
4. Bubble tea break. Coconut milk green tea with lychee bubbles. All kinds of awesome.
1. Sports Day! "Try your best, try your best" - it seems there are no winners or losers at sports day anymore. Would have made it much more bearable for me when I was at school. I didn't manage to get any really decent snaps of the two main competitors as we were too far away but I did manage this cheeky one of the little man running a race of his own. (p.s. there are winners as Meryn came first and Dylan second in their events… sssh don't tell anyone)
2. We had a lovely Father's Day celebrating this lovely one. Pancakes for breakfast in bed, lots of cuddles and a trip to the beach, with extra surf time for daddy. Sorry for the old photo - very rare to get one of them all together. Must try harder.
3. Happy mail. This gorgeous Whistle and Flute tee and the cutest Bobo Choses bloomers made my day even sunnier. See yesterday's outfit post for more.
4. Daddy getting him started from a young age. Look at those legs!


Monday, 16 June 2014

Wardrobe envy

My kids have better clothes than me. There, I said it.

Since leaving a career in corporate communications to be a stay at home mama, my day-to-day wardrobe is less chic, more cheap. Think capsule. A very small capsule.

But my littlies on the other hand… seriously, if they made this stuff in my size. And I had smaller thighs… lets move on. 

I've discovered and fallen in love with so many cool kids brands in the last few months. Some seriously awesome clothes for three very cool beanies.

Even on a cloudy day, my little man shines bright in this adorable kawaii cloud tee by Whistle and Flute. I picked this up from Scout and Co - check them out for some seriously covetable clothes and accessories for kids.

The spotty bloomers are by Bobo Choses. One of my favourite brands by a mile. The SS14 collection was perfection and right up my street. I picked up a few bits and pieces which we'll be able to get out now that the sun has his hat on.

And he literally lives in these gorgeous handmade moccasins by Monkey and Mole, in twig brown. I have my eye on a beautiful sunny yellow pair. He needs them. No really, he does. 

Friday, 6 June 2014

Unicorns rock

Yup. Words to live by right there.

My friends tease me sometimes that I'm too 'nice'. All unicorns, cupcakes and glitter. I take that as a compliment. 

I'm a compulsive worrier though and its something I wish I could stop. After all, where's the sense in worrying about things you can't control? I much prefer living in my little rainbow coloured, glittery happy place and just being happy.

So yes, not entirely sure why I felt the need to share this. Except that the quote made me smile. 

So, if anyone wants me, I'll be in my happy place with the other unicorns. Oh and wine. Wine helps :)